Several years ago my husband, Dustin, and I found ourselves struggling in our finances. Dustin had quit a job a few months earlier and had been working for much less pay than his previous job. Now I know, with everything in me, that him quitting that job was God ordained. God had also blessed him with work while we waited for the job God had for him. However, knowing our steps had been ordered by the Lord didn’t change the struggle we were in. We quickly found ourselves worrying how we would make it and feeling like God wasn’t hearing our cries for help. It seemed as if he was too far out of reach to hear us. When the financial storm raged against us, we hastily decided that maybe we had heard wrong or maybe the job change wasn’t quite right. Within a couple of days, Dustin was on the phone with my brother making plans to work for him in Texas. He would spend the next forty days or so away from our family and we continued that vicious work cycle for about a year.
It didn’t take us long to realize that the initial job change was in fact God ordained, but we just became a little too impatient when the storm raged on our finances. We, in a sense, became God over our situation. We decided God wasn’t working as quickly as we’d like so we took control from Him and did things our way. In Exodus 24, God called for Moses to go up to Mt. Sinai alone to receive his commands and leave Aaron in charge of the people. We are told he was there for 40 days and nights. Meanwhile, the people decided Moses had been gone too long and they went to Aaron saying, “come make gods for us who will go before us because this Moses, the man who brought us up from the land of Egypt–we don’t know what has happened to him”. Long story short, they couldn’t wait any longer for God, so Aaron took their gold jewelry and made an idol out of it. Just like Dustin and I couldn’t wait on God any longer, so we created our own god that would get things done (in our own timing).
I’d love to tell you we saw what we had done, changed our minds, and that life was all good. But I can’t say that. We did recognize what we had done, but our actions caused a ripple effect and we seemed to be stuck. Sometimes we have to live with the consequences to our actions. Our particular consequences meant Daddy was on the road for a year. He was barely home with his family and missing all the little things in life. It also meant a strained relationship for the two of us, along with so many other issues, all from a poor decision to rush the wait.
I know sometimes the wait can be hard, even scary at times. Believe me, when we got our hearts right and asked God to get a handle on the mess we made, it was still hard and scary. God didn’t swoop in and immediately pull us out of the mess, we once again waited, but this time we didn’t rush the wait. We made a decision to put God in his rightful place no matter what that looked like. We chose to trust Him and His timing for our life. After about a year on the road, Dustin felt God dealing with him to walk away from his current job and to be home. Again, this meant he’d be making much less money. However, we were ready this time, not financially per say, but we were faithfully ready to trust God. We knew God had a plan, we just had to be still and wait on Him. Within a few months Dustin received a call for the job he’d always dreamed of. God’s timing could not have been more perfect.
I understand that when you are in the midst of the wait it seems like it (whatever “it” is for you) is never going to happen. But God! God always has a perfect plan for each one of us and he has never been late. Don’t allow your fears to rush the wait, give God all control.
Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart be courageous. Wait for the Lord. Psalm 27:14