Have you ever taken a personality test? I’ve taken the DISC test a couple of times and just recently retook it. As usual, I was a D which means Dominate or Decisive. The D is also referred to as the personality of a lion. That pretty much sums me up in so many ways. I’m one who likes to be in control of whatever situation I find myself in, to know what’s going on and make sure things are getting done. It can be an excellent trait to have in leadership, but it can also be a challenge for me to be led or share in a leadership role. And in the realm of kingdom work control over things is seldom the case. God wants control over our lives and situations. And while I may be a lion according to the DISC test, He’s the lion of Judah! As hard is it may be for me to understand and let go of control, He sees what I don’t, He has a plan already laid out for me. There are too many times I’ve thrown a tantrum wondering why things aren’t happening for me or happening the way I planned for them too. And the truth is, they never will. It’s not about me and my plans, it’s about Him and His ways.
Right now, I’m facing so many different things he’s compelled me to do, and when I’m obsessed with controlling them, I can quickly become overwhelmed. If I’m not careful, I begin to question what I’m even doing, after all, it seems so far above what I can do. And when it’s so far above my control and I’m not willing to hand over the reins to the waymaker, and the promise keeper, I end up tempted to quit. Lately, I’ve been closer to quitting than u can even imagine BUT then God whispers little reminders to me that I’m not meant to do it all alone, but I am merely a vessel for Him. What He speaks to me is HIS work, he’s just asking me to manage it. But If I quit, I quit on Him; I quit on the hundreds or thousands of souls who will be affected by the work He’s entrusted to me. My cousin Jacob recently said to me about a situation, “people’s lives and spiritual walk are hinging upon what you do or don’t do.” That’s heavy, but that’s kingdom! So as hard as it may be to raise money and build a dream center, as tricky as it may be to find the time to write to you each week, as crazy as planning a retreat for women (!COMING SOON!) may sound, as exhausting as youth pastoring may be at times; there are lost and hurting people depending on my obedience! And people depend on your obedience as well. So, what will you do with the crazy dreams God’s given YOU to manage?
I am the vine; you are the branches. Whoever abides in me and I in him, he it is that bears much fruit, for apart from me you can do nothing. John 15:5
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